As the year comes to an end, I realize that almost every year I will try to come up with a new year resolution. Though it serves as a guide, but most of the time plans change and I crave into temptation. Every year I set out with a renewed fervor to accomplish certain things but most of them never happen. I guess it's probably due to my own excuses and weak will. This frustrates me but nonetheless, it's always better to have a resolution rather than not having any. You can dream big, but without motivation, persistence and hard work, your dream will always be a dream. That's why it is essential to find out what you really want. I guess for me, what I want in the long run is comfort. Comfort for myself, comfort for my parents, comfort for my future children. Hitting the early 20s makes me feel a lot more responsible for myself, as I am an young adult, freedom to do my own things, though always restricted by an over protective mom. I know parents are protective over their children and I believe I will be like that too if I become one. But really, if I can't do what I want to do now, I will never be able to do that once I grow older. Sometimes, I wish that I have this freedom to just choose whatever I want and be responsible for that decision made and this is how I am going to bring up my child. I want them to protect them, yet give them the freedom to explore life close to nature and free from technology.
Next year I'm going to be 21. Finances and job concerns will soon be coming in. I couldn't be relying on my parents all the time. I need to learn how to be even more independent and financially savvy. I hope to have my first $15,000 by next year end. It's going to be tough given the fact that I am going on exchange and going to travel for a few month. But this also means that I have to search else where for money making ideas. Hmmm...never give up hope right? There's always a rainbow after the rain and the tough gets going when the going gets tough. This is the minimal that most of us should strive to achieve. Because the world is not fair in its distribution of wealth. Some are lucky to be born with it, but others had to work hard for what they want to get life going. I belong to the latter. Perhaps this is my motivation to get through my tough university life as all I want, is a change.
